and when its raining...instead of feeling it...u open and umbrella up...
afraid of flu is the reason...
Then u said that u love sun...
when the sun shine...u find a shade...to hide and to avoid...
afraid of sunburn is the reason...
U said that u love wind...
eventually...when the wind blowing...u close the window...
"its cold" u said...
and then u tell me that u love me...
and i make a mistake...fix it back...change it back...but u gone...
well...love just a words...
tak cakap la kan kite nie baik...tapi kan...come to think about it...macam la boy tu pasang kayu 3...its u leaving him...alone and feel the agony of lonely...how the fu*k is that???for that freaking boy...stop blaming ur self mothafaka...u just find sumthing to refill that god damn empty seat...
the devil never stop working and human with mistake is like a flower with a leaf...theres nothing like a god damn perfection in this world...and to make it worse...the devil in u were enlightened by the devil named "Friend"...stop blaming ur self for that...
a mere human like u will never fail to fall...no matter into what...if she really love u...at least she will listen...she will analyze...she will realize what have u done for her...nearly 3 years is how old of ur relationship...and if she still cant get to know u...just walk away...i bet she wont even try to stop u...
stop tearing ur heart apart...stop waiting like a dumb...im not here to back up for what u did in da past...but im here to back up u for what u have become for her...
within a second...he turn from smile to tears...that is the moment when u leave that mothafaka boy...that is what happen...YES THAT IS IT!!!! FUCK!!! emotional plak aku...u was his everything...and u leave...
then that freaking sad boy try to cheer his self up...be a hero to a victim...is such a wonderful thing when hero and victim is a different person...but when the variable turn to a hero and victim is the SAME PERSON...how does it FEEL!!!...u know how pathetic it is right...
that fucking empty seat is god damn annoying...its hurt like hell...then he tried to move on...with this little slut and a few "FRIENDS"...which eventually teach him about everything...wow..nick ske...ha5...
and then u come back...he leave everything...he changed...when the time u come...nick bleh nampak tau x camne air mata tu jadi senyuman...camne dia x perlukan topeng tuk sembunyikan kesedihan...u know how valuable u are for him...
but then u punish him for his past??? What the hell??? ape ko buta ke??? ko x tengok ke ape yg dia buat untuk ka??? cant u see that~...no need...laki sokmo salah...
dont u realize it yet???u leave him open...unarm...easy victim for those fucking devil...kalau la betol dia sejahat tu...cuba tengok...tengok sejenak...if that is his true behavior...how the hell u could survive those nearly 3 years of relationship without being a slut!!! FUCK!!! open ur eye...cant u see that???
he has change when u come around...conclude it with ur self...he change everything...everything from life style to dress up...for u...CANT U SEE IT YET!!! he spare his everything for u...and yet when his past show up...u leave him...IS THAT A GOD DAMN FUCKING LOVE??? ptuih~ sial la...
secret hurt??? truth is much harder to be handle...trust me...sebab tu dia jadi rahsia...lagi pon...tu masa silam dia la...dont judge people for what they used to be...its about who they are now...=.="...wei, sedangkan lidah pon tergigit...(betol x peribahasa aku guna nie...=.=")
u told him that u love him...ptuih~...and then u walk away right???...nice way to show it
nick x thu la nak cakap camne kat kawan nick seko tu...he keep holding to his memories...dia dah obses..bukan suka...tapi obses...muka nya handsome...perangai nya periang...orangnya jenis happy go lucky...tu sebelum nie la...skang org yang nick cakap tu dah mampos...ntah kubur mana kena tanam pon dop thu...
he simply become quiet...pernah beberapa kali nick tangkap dia menangis sendirian...hey girl out there...korang asyik dok cakap ego laki tinggi kan...itu la...ini la...korang tahu x...kawan nick tu...macam celaka egonya...but i caught him crying...korang tahu x ape nilai air mata seorang lelaki...tahu??? ptuih~ atas muka...korang x tahu pape...sebagaimana korang tuduh laki x tahu pape sal pompuan...camtu gak la korang x thu pape sal laki...korang tahu salahkan diorg je...
nick nak sangat kawan nick tu move on...he stuck with his god damn fucking memories...nearly 2 years..yup...dah hampir 2 tahun unta tu tersangkut camtu...korang ade kawan baik kan...kalau korang kat tempat nick...nick rasa korang thu ape yang nick rasa skang...
nick pernah taw bagi ayat camnie kat dia...
Nick :-
"ko tahu bile nak brenti kan???"
"ko tahu bile perlu ko lepaskan kan???"
"ko tahu bile ko perlu move on kan???"
"ko tahu bile ko perlu menyesuaikan diri kan???"
"ko tahu diri ko yang dulu kan???"
Dia :-
"yup...aku tahu seme tu..."
Nick :-
"So tunggu ape ag???"
Dia :-
"Tapi tahu ngan boleh bukan mende yang sama nick"
and nick give up...and kuar la entry nie...siot tol...mane ntah dia blaja menjawab camtu...=.="...
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